Wit or Wisdom

Well, it’s more like an action. It’s the act of saying goodbye.

I loathe it.

I particularly loathe it when the words are said when you don’t know what will happen next. I had that happen not too long ago. The terrible uncertainty that I faced in my life as I walked away from a person I love who I wasn’t completely sure still even cared about me was torturous. I learned to hate goodbye a long time ago, but that was simply the worst one of my life to this point.

Now, things are different. Much, though not all, of the uncertainty has been removed from my life. But I still don’t like the goodbye. I’m sure the Lord has a reason for it… but it’s hard for me to see sometimes.

Tonight, I had to say more goodbyes to people I care for deeply. In another six weeks or so, I’ll be saying goodbye to some people for the first time. One person, I don’t know how long it will be until I’ll see again. Another is one I’m tired of saying goodbye to.

It makes me question why God allows us to care for, or love, people who are so far away from us. Does it grow us? I’m sure it does somehow, though I (obviously) don’t have all the answers.

I despise the act of saying goodbye. It always brings me to tears. I always wonder if the world is falling apart. And then God picks me back up, dusts me off, and helps me walk on. It’s His purpose. It’s His timing. Sure, it’s hard to understand, particularly for someone who gets as attached as I do. But I am confident that it is somehow for God’s best in our lives.

In the meantime, I can’t wait to say hello again.

Yoo, hoo, blog, world! Now that my life has finally settled into some sense of normalcy, I hope to resume regular posting. My life has undergone some HUGE changes… literally mind-boggling.

Where to start… I’m, of course, now a fully graduated, working member of the “real world.” (whatever THAT is). I work a full-time job as a teller at U.S. Bank. I’d highly recommend that you bank there if you don’t, because if you don’t, I’m going to personally come to your house and slap you. (just kidding)

I’m driving a friend’s car around right now… a beautiful Hyundai Sonata (joyousthirst.wordpress.com) is away, visiting her family right now. Once she comes back, I’ll have to buy my own car. *sigh* It probably won’t be as nice as hers. I’m hoping to get a good Toyota or Honda… wouldn’t mind having a Taurus either if I could get a good year. Anybody know what years of the Taurus are safe?

Of course, there is always God’s amazing work going on in the background. Over the past months, I’d become selfish and unfeeling towards others. Only wanting what I think will make me happy and that sort of thing. Well, through a difficult trial in my life, the Lord showed me this.. and now I’m taking steps to fix it. I’ll pay the consequences for my actions for a long time to come, but I am glad God allowed to happen what happened, even if it does hurt. I trust Him that it is for the better in the long haul. (And in the short haul.)

So, normal stuff will be flying your way soon…